Breaking the Skin: Dani Rose
I’ve been writing my whole life. Feeling the curves of cerebrally negotiated symbols as my fingers press my instrument into the fabric of a surface. First crayons and coloring books where sketches became characters, then numbers in pencil at the teacher’s request, before I knew these thoughts were mine. I pressed marker into skin on my mother’s and younger brother’s hands and arms, and have written into my own skin in ways that press deeper than marks can ever express. Sometimes, I play with words and, at times, they play with me. Mostly, I write because there is nothing else that soothes my soul and releases my thoughts into cathartic waves of, sometimes, healing, sometimes, wtf, but waves nonetheless. I renegotiate reality on paper to be reinterpreted by those who choose to read, sometimes… or maybe I’m full of shit. Either way, I’m me.
The Guest Who Arrived After the Feast was Eaten
By Dani Rose
Sure, “butter noodle” is fun to say!
Can Poetry be artistically written about butter noodles?
Wafts of steam rise from reeling ribbons
Of odiferous silent stalk…
Slipping like eels, they slap each other
and sound as they slide from my spoon sssSplat!
But what’s the good in that?
Beauty with no substance, no value?
Can meaning be derived from a bowl of buttered bliss?
Perhaps, the Butter Noodle is a metaphor
for the elusiveness of Desire
Perhaps,
the most difficult part of ambition
is swallowing your Failures,
ingesting Humility
until it fuels your cells
to achieve
Perhaps,
the taste of achievement is not as Rich
as the Scent of Necessity…
REeeach
STreettCH
jUMp
and pray.
In the End, they are ONLY buttered noodles.
Sunshine and Destruction
By Dani Rose
“You’re a beautiful ray of sunshine
and destruction”
Isn’t it one in the same?
Anything beautiful has the capacity to destroy
and to destroy itself in fragility.
Fragile like a flower,
or fragile like a bomb?
In both cases, fragility causes destruction:
one, held, bruised, cut, and torn
by hands too rough to be soft,
the other: an abruptly magnified reaction
I am, perhaps both,
after all,
sunshine hyper-focused is also a death ray.
the smoking ants littering
my grandmother’s sidewalk know
how mishandling magnification works.
Epiphany Whilst Dining on My Couch One Early Late Spring/Autumn Night-Morning
By Dani Rose
Things don't have to make sense for it to be order...
Ironically beautiful true
true
It ...
What is "it" that is order?
And why don't things make sense in "it"?
"It" seems to me is a conundrum.
"It" is order, where things don't make sense
Therefore, order is senseless ...
Yeah...
I suppose it is senseless, order.
You can't have a quarter without -order.
Different letters... same sense.
Order, it is not perceived by sense...
We grow accustomed to the mean.
What we sense, makes sense, is dis-order.
Only when my comfort is "dis"-ed am I inclined to move, respond, reject.
Only when I am pushed can I discover where I stand.
Otherwise "it" is just order... senseless order it is.
Passion, Aliens, and Spitfire
By Dani Rose
You commented on my post
slipped in my DMs with grace
landing directly on my face… I mean, heart…yeah.
pinning my desires to the floor,
stinging them into submission
with your alien theories,
spitfire-surprise, and a top hat
that was nowhere
but in your voice.
I could hear your voice all night,
states away, turning water to air,
drowning in your life force
knowing there’s
no way can I stay away.
You caught me at a breaking point,
or point of break
— between semesters —
an em-dashed appositive
tying my time tight,
not as tight as it will be
— swollen, when my fingers…
I mean… fuck… your eyes,
those lips, and the sounds
that flow through them —
teeth, smile and those fucking lips.
Every word you speak
excites my hunger for more.
I could see us
talking for hours
cuddled on the floor,
on a rug,
before a fire…
and after…
…after… heh.
You know I’m down with after, too.
Same as you, so let me ride you…
ride this wave of you with me
with all the feelings of the sea
as it calls to the sirens blaring,
tides turning to howls
of freedom
and permanence.
It’d Be Me.
By Dani Rose
If God made mistakes,
It’d be me.
A one-night stand rush,
hastily pasted
with parts of this—no, that:
a too-big nose
bent just a little — good enough,
Grandfather’s Great Depression eyes,
brows thick, expressive,
making secrets impossible to hide
—lips a little too loose,
but too tight to smile,
a smile flecked with as much imperfection
as beauty can hold.
Pour some spirit in…
truth, wisdom, and intellect…
Ope, a little full there,
brains spilling 9mm too far for comfort, but
there’s no time to even out the sharp parts —
time to go! They started early.
Wrapped up and sent —
to the wrong address, perhaps
Mom wants a refund
of her late teen years.
Father’s on tour – behind a gun,
forgetting me, and a son, apparently.
Maybe God forgot
to give me a category,
he seemed to be rushed:
intellectually - fluid,
emotionally - fluid,
gender - fluid,
sexually - fluid,
astrologically - fluid.
I guess, you could say,
I go with the flow.
If anyone could flow,
It’d be me.
Flowing like sea.
Well, less like waves’
steady wax/wane
more like a river
conquering currents of shame,
finding a way,
through any terrain, unstoppable—
a force dammed to be contained,
but breaks through instead
flowing in and around
flooding through streets
of nearby towns.
Perhaps categories
can’t contain me—damn.
Life would be easier if they could.
I’ve tried to fit in,
but nothing appears as it should
Because if God made mistakes,
then they aren’t God, are they?
If the gods decided to break the mold,
it’d be me.
